its fucking early

so im writing this blog to talk about hope and the false-ness of it and mostly to vent about how my mom is an drunk.

so yesterday i went to see my Friend Marek at Old Navy and you informs me that there hiring and seeing as how i got layed-off/fired like im went there and talked to the lady and she talk me about this web site that i had to go to, to applie and so i get home from a wonderful night of fun to a drunk mom and so i go to go upstairs and she wants to talk so i go put my hoodie in my room and come back down stairs so shes all nice at first about how i didnt clean A FUCKING CORNER IN MY ROOM and how im not aloud to leave the house until its done and how she'll give me another 20 for the week and then out of no where started screaming and like told im irresponsible and like she was going to talk my car away and stuff and so i left and told her she was a drunk and went up stairs and looked at that website for Old Navy BUT GOD DAMN!


shes a crazy bitch!

ok so im there....again.

so i think its gotten worse over the last week like idk im sitting there chilling with everyone and i look around and once again feel like the odd one out and im sorry thats the worse feeling ive ever had in my life. its like im stomach sunk to the bottom of my body and like my WHOLE mind set wow im lame. like and i think it reflects on everyone else like Terry got mad at me and thats not going to stop any thing that actually kinda made me wanna beat the shit out of him for the sheer fact i cant help that i get that way like it just happens like it not like "Oh im going to feel like shit about myself now" no its like "Oh wow im alone........" like idk man this is killing me on the inside and i think its alittle worse than it was before because of reasons ive all ready blogged.

idk like im just tire of my life being so shitty most of the time. Im lonely, i got fire/layed off, and im that kid that hangs out with everyone and is ALWAYS stag like that the all around worst part im like .... MEH!


ima save the rest of this for another depressing blog.

Obama-rama

So last night was a night of history; Obama is now the first African American president its one of those things that makes me proud to be proud to be alive to see. Like seriously im actually watching the news reight now and its talking about about how Americans are lining up to read a newspaper, that right there is one of the things that makes me think that American is going to become on the "good list" of the rest of the world. im so into the News that i cant finish this blog. ill continue it later