damn. started out nice but ended in the same old shit.

so ive led myself down a hole where there are painful things at the bottom

I've stopped something good
to try to get to something better (which hasn't come and will never occur)
and i realized that today....
so of course me being the retard that i am i try to go back to an original argee and DAMN if that back fired too

so now im alone(like i have been for the past few weeks but just thought it would all work out....damn if i was wrong)
and back to writing shitty, depressing blogs to try to get shit out of my mind.....(it doesnt work)
i like to think blogging helps me think but it just makes me think about the shit hole im in

this will prolly be one of the few blogs i write again untill something gets better
she'll prolly read this and ask why?
but for everyone else that have been reading my blogs for a while they know if its shitty i dont blog
because shit stays shitty for LONG periods of time............

eatting diner
smoking
and falling asleep are my main goals for a while........................

man credit recovery is fucking retarded

its 8:34am im sitting here in Mr.Rawls class
im bored as hell















get me out of here

damn

well end of the week already
and i have nothing to show for it other than court in the morning lol
obviously not from this week but for not having my lisence when i got pulled over on 10/25 lol
smart i know

my emotional state has been in a downward spiral for the past week or so
like i mean it goes around and around like one minute ill be content with my actions
and then the next im thinking about them and just thinking damn i a fucking retarded
but for the most part i feel i should stick to one thought and try not to think of the alturnitive

so for the select few that know of my current situations they know i ended it yesterday.....
still friends with this women im actually talking to her right now on facebook, i know facebook; everyone loves facebook.... lol

dude what a weird week lol

its been a weird but a good break

this break has been awkward
like I've found myself twice
sitting on my bed thinking about life, situations I'm in, and the others around me

my life i don't think could get any better like, spiritual?; like i haven't found god or anything ridiculous but like I'm content with my state of mind

the situations I'm in have made me think long and hard but at the same time made me happy for the 3-4 weeks they've been going on

and some the ppl around me have made me mad as hell
let pull on that for a second
i hear today that someone thinks just because he/she has some bad situation with themselves and others they can just say things about other ppl; and that wont get back to them, well it did and i think just because your in a fucked up state of mind stuck sitting there with nothing but a thumb in your ass feeling sorry for yourself, don't take something i have(and it may not be something that you think is worth anything but fuck you i enjoy it) and twist it to make it seem like your hurt because of problems that you brought upon yourself

so now that's off my chest and on a computer screen
everyone else that graces there presents upon me y'all are awesome just to let y'all know and
Cody i hope we can get the old click back together i miss y'all :)

OK well diners ready and my moms screaming

until the near future
farewell