so im back...

so ive been gone to New Orleans for the past 5 days or so i feel that i needed to blog about my time. first off the whole reason i went to NOLA so for Voodoo Fest and if i could explain the time i had i would blog it but i cant thats how much fun i had there. like no lie it was that fucking awesome. so the first night we went to the regular places like Canal Street, and all the bars my brother normally goes to which was a blast i went to Cafe Do Mon and ate Vietnamese which was amazing. all in all that was one of the best trips ive ever been to in my whole fucking life.

depression; wow its back already

so in the past week ive been more happy than ive been in the past year and it was all for shit...

so in a blunt way i found out that the girl ive liked is dating someone else and like she didnt tell me that she was but like i asked her if she liked me back (it a better way than that) but it was like lets be friends and see where that takes us and you know what that right there should have told me "Blake i like you as a friend but not like that" and really i thinked i liked her enough to make that register in my head as "Blake you still have a chance, lets get to know each other better" like im a dumbass ive been happy for the thought that maybe; JUST FUCKING MAYBE, i had a fighting chance to be happy for a while and not think to myself every fucking day that im gonna be alone through my whole high school life like im that kid that has not girl friend for his whole high school life and then goes to college for like independent film production cause theres nothing better in life to do for him.

im that kid that lame ass kid.

The one that takes something that obviously mean no and thinks it a chance

im a dumbass and i feel like shit

and really since Haley told me that she had a boy friend like my eye lids got heavy and i felt like i did 2 or 3 weeks ago like the shit losers walk on.

i hate this....

i need to get used to it again

happiness has set in...for now

so a lot has happened since my last a little more depressing blogs
im happy...

and its all because of a curtain someone which whom i like; like "like like" if you understand my fifth grader talk lol

idk like im not dating her idsk i guess you could say were talking or at least the what everyone else calls it.

like she makes me smile and not like oh thats funny smile like when i see her like it makes me feel like warm inside (in the good way) and like idk if she likes me back and im a little sketched about that like if this were to be one of those things where im just an idiot with a crush and the girl thinks im ok but not "what shes looking for" like ima go back to that veggitative state where i shared no other emotion other than sad.

but i know it'll prolly end like that because shes gorgeous and im just MEH.

like i wouldnt be suprised tomorrow shes not at work like she says and she goes to homecoming with someone else ... something like that is bound to happen like shes to good to be true you get what im saying


idk im happy for the most part untill something goes wrong

thank you you for makeing me smile :) for at least a short amount of time

=]

so new blog time

First off in still alone but ive got someone im gonna shoot for and if everything goes well :D it may happen who knows??
Yeah i need something to go good for me soon for ima go nuts! on that note i had a good friend of mine try to set me up with some chick form prop and dont get me wrong she was nice and im gonna try talking to her and see what comes out of it but for the most part lets say she wasnt "eye candy" and i know thats really shallow of me to say but thats some thing important that attracts me to a girl that humor and music preference lol
but on a lighter note lifes been ok ive been feeling like a third wheel because i hang out with people who are dating people and thats completely my fault lol but when your friends start dating each other what do you do? FIND A NEW GOD... lol

ok so i think im gonna end this one short by saying lol


I agree with Terry that Caroline has as much SPANISH dick in her then a Mexican bathroom.