ooo girl shock me like an electric eel

so its christmas time and im going insane i had a good christmas but my little brothers are hear and im about to shoot someone in the fucking head i cant leave hints why im sitting here writing a blog but idk its horrible there both greedy little kids that get everything handed to them on a silver fucking platter i hate them and i may act like i like them or i may tell you i like them because at that single time in there persents there ok but theyve been here for three days i keep getting this feeling that im going to shoot them in the mouth with a shot gun... yea i know thats how bad they are i gotta go my parents are about to leave and i gotta watch josh so he doesnt like set the house on fire.

my reply to an old blog

so yes terry i read this and it may have been a long ass time since you wrote it but i doesnt maker really if you must know alex told me about if you must know

i think we were good friends for a while but it got to the point of use become to much like each other and personally im glad we stopped being friends i seriously dont want to become anything like you im not ok with your enormous ego it started to start to get to me because i gradually started to act like you and it dawned on me that i need to stop hanging with you when i called someone to chill (and for the record im not going to say any names because thats fucked up) and they told me that they wouldnt hang out with me anymore because i actted just like you and they werent up for dealling with that type of shit and that was my reality check and so i went back to my old self with out the black and the greasyness and now im extremely popular and i own that to you but at the same time ppl seem to think im like you but im not and i feel that i dont need that reputation well see in a few monthes but im not to sure i like where im at and i like my little click of friends and that all that matters to me at this point in my life

-blake

alex wiggins

your so fucking amazing... im getting so sidetracked right now like im talking to you through my textting machine lol so yeah whats going on seeing as how you think im writing a blog about you lol im bout to get off here and text you again cause well.... you know im awesome

... im lame

so ive come to the conclusion that i rushed into something that i shouldnt have and now i know that it was basically me being retarded like idk she interested in someone else which isnt a really big shocker you know. i feel im getting back to that numb state where nothing bothers me like im an emotionless person i dont like it. it causes me to be a huge dick to the people i love. i just dont think i can stop that feeling for a while so if i do end up pissing/offending you im sorry ahead of time i just dont think im going to care enough when it happens that ill feel the need to say im sorry so yeah there it is....

wow that was a dick paragraph idk like it'll be a year January 18 since ive had a "real" g/f wow thats lame ...


im out people are over for diner

fresh-ness with a spin, i dont have to plug it in

wow i really haven't blogged about my love life in a while that's a first lol it seems like this is my only way of getting rejected, out of my thoughts; in my blog where i get to go back and read about it. in some sick way its like medicine.

so I've grown a liking to that cool chick i talked about last time and you know shes dope shes the only straight chick I've ever met that likes Grind-core which is fresh but yeah I'm going with her to the dove street light thing tonight (and it was made perfectly clear last night that it cant be called a date) which is ok like i just like her for the most part and i thought id give the date thing a shot and shes still going like so it cant be the end of the world which is ok cause in the past I've come to realize i rush into things all to much anyways its cause I'm lame lol.

Oh and on that last blog i really didnt mean for Katies name to be cencored to Fatie lol like in my head i meant for it to say fatey like im just dumb and replaced the "K" with an "F"

i think ima wear a sweater vest today just because im fucking awesome

Wow The Problems That [Arise(sp?)] .

so ok lets give some WARNING before i write this if you are mentioned in this blog im not "bashing you" im simply stating facts that have happened in my life that have occurred since my last blog thats it nothing more. My name isnt Terry Hart i dont "bash" people in blogs that homosexual....lol but the names have been altured so i dont get in problems from the school for writing about someone or whatever i dont care i like to blog that really it


Now in the past i was friends with a girl name Fatie Nandley ok she was just to much of whine whine whine so i stop hanging out with her and i grown a shear dislike of her and so i says some things that shouldnt have been said but what ever its words they'll be forgot ok so i made a "fat" joke about Fatie and OMG its the end of the world right like i can admit im a BIG dude right well i feel i have all the room to say what i wish to about fat people and it doesnt bother me if you feel to make a remark back to me about my size go for it like really i call my self BODACIOUS like if that doesnt SCREAM i can laugh at my self i dont know what does you know and so Faties all mad at me which doesnt bother me at all you know i fucking HATE her shes DISCUSTING but whatever you know. And her other DISCUSTING friend Blexis Breenburg who i also dislike A LOT is all making a fuss about it and i really dont care about her shes sicker than the other you know and now my i guess used to be friend Sarah is mad at me about making my remark and you know what i dont care she can be mad at me all she wants like i dont care.

Now on better news i meet someone new this week
like i knew her before but like not like know i knew of her thats it to make things short shes dope her name is Alex Monzon (sp?) idk lol Her Kara and i are going to the HH and Tickle Me Pink show on thursday which is dope


any way my next blog was supposed to be all about my friend Alex but i started this one and just remembered that so ima take a rain check and do it next time

its fucking early

so im writing this blog to talk about hope and the false-ness of it and mostly to vent about how my mom is an drunk.

so yesterday i went to see my Friend Marek at Old Navy and you informs me that there hiring and seeing as how i got layed-off/fired like im went there and talked to the lady and she talk me about this web site that i had to go to, to applie and so i get home from a wonderful night of fun to a drunk mom and so i go to go upstairs and she wants to talk so i go put my hoodie in my room and come back down stairs so shes all nice at first about how i didnt clean A FUCKING CORNER IN MY ROOM and how im not aloud to leave the house until its done and how she'll give me another 20 for the week and then out of no where started screaming and like told im irresponsible and like she was going to talk my car away and stuff and so i left and told her she was a drunk and went up stairs and looked at that website for Old Navy BUT GOD DAMN!


shes a crazy bitch!

ok so im there....again.

so i think its gotten worse over the last week like idk im sitting there chilling with everyone and i look around and once again feel like the odd one out and im sorry thats the worse feeling ive ever had in my life. its like im stomach sunk to the bottom of my body and like my WHOLE mind set wow im lame. like and i think it reflects on everyone else like Terry got mad at me and thats not going to stop any thing that actually kinda made me wanna beat the shit out of him for the sheer fact i cant help that i get that way like it just happens like it not like "Oh im going to feel like shit about myself now" no its like "Oh wow im alone........" like idk man this is killing me on the inside and i think its alittle worse than it was before because of reasons ive all ready blogged.

idk like im just tire of my life being so shitty most of the time. Im lonely, i got fire/layed off, and im that kid that hangs out with everyone and is ALWAYS stag like that the all around worst part im like .... MEH!


ima save the rest of this for another depressing blog.

Obama-rama

So last night was a night of history; Obama is now the first African American president its one of those things that makes me proud to be proud to be alive to see. Like seriously im actually watching the news reight now and its talking about about how Americans are lining up to read a newspaper, that right there is one of the things that makes me think that American is going to become on the "good list" of the rest of the world. im so into the News that i cant finish this blog. ill continue it later

so im back...

so ive been gone to New Orleans for the past 5 days or so i feel that i needed to blog about my time. first off the whole reason i went to NOLA so for Voodoo Fest and if i could explain the time i had i would blog it but i cant thats how much fun i had there. like no lie it was that fucking awesome. so the first night we went to the regular places like Canal Street, and all the bars my brother normally goes to which was a blast i went to Cafe Do Mon and ate Vietnamese which was amazing. all in all that was one of the best trips ive ever been to in my whole fucking life.

depression; wow its back already

so in the past week ive been more happy than ive been in the past year and it was all for shit...

so in a blunt way i found out that the girl ive liked is dating someone else and like she didnt tell me that she was but like i asked her if she liked me back (it a better way than that) but it was like lets be friends and see where that takes us and you know what that right there should have told me "Blake i like you as a friend but not like that" and really i thinked i liked her enough to make that register in my head as "Blake you still have a chance, lets get to know each other better" like im a dumbass ive been happy for the thought that maybe; JUST FUCKING MAYBE, i had a fighting chance to be happy for a while and not think to myself every fucking day that im gonna be alone through my whole high school life like im that kid that has not girl friend for his whole high school life and then goes to college for like independent film production cause theres nothing better in life to do for him.

im that kid that lame ass kid.

The one that takes something that obviously mean no and thinks it a chance

im a dumbass and i feel like shit

and really since Haley told me that she had a boy friend like my eye lids got heavy and i felt like i did 2 or 3 weeks ago like the shit losers walk on.

i hate this....

i need to get used to it again

happiness has set in...for now

so a lot has happened since my last a little more depressing blogs
im happy...

and its all because of a curtain someone which whom i like; like "like like" if you understand my fifth grader talk lol

idk like im not dating her idsk i guess you could say were talking or at least the what everyone else calls it.

like she makes me smile and not like oh thats funny smile like when i see her like it makes me feel like warm inside (in the good way) and like idk if she likes me back and im a little sketched about that like if this were to be one of those things where im just an idiot with a crush and the girl thinks im ok but not "what shes looking for" like ima go back to that veggitative state where i shared no other emotion other than sad.

but i know it'll prolly end like that because shes gorgeous and im just MEH.

like i wouldnt be suprised tomorrow shes not at work like she says and she goes to homecoming with someone else ... something like that is bound to happen like shes to good to be true you get what im saying


idk im happy for the most part untill something goes wrong

thank you you for makeing me smile :) for at least a short amount of time

=]

so new blog time

First off in still alone but ive got someone im gonna shoot for and if everything goes well :D it may happen who knows??
Yeah i need something to go good for me soon for ima go nuts! on that note i had a good friend of mine try to set me up with some chick form prop and dont get me wrong she was nice and im gonna try talking to her and see what comes out of it but for the most part lets say she wasnt "eye candy" and i know thats really shallow of me to say but thats some thing important that attracts me to a girl that humor and music preference lol
but on a lighter note lifes been ok ive been feeling like a third wheel because i hang out with people who are dating people and thats completely my fault lol but when your friends start dating each other what do you do? FIND A NEW GOD... lol

ok so i think im gonna end this one short by saying lol


I agree with Terry that Caroline has as much SPANISH dick in her then a Mexican bathroom.

...

so im writing this blog to vent nothing more so if your included then dont take it like im telling you i dont like/wanna be friends with you anymore its just a ramble of thought on a selected section on Blogspot.

First off ive lost all hope in ever finding a relationship. Ive come to conclude that people just see me as the fat kid thats semi-funny and that would make a good friend but not a boyfriend and dont think im gonna go kill myself over it (im not a stero-typical emo kid that would go cut himself in the corner and if you think of me like that your completely wrong im the exact opposite) im just unhappy and dont know if i can change that its been like this for monthes now ive just masked it and/or delt with it.

Second my friends are drifting away (or maybe its me) and i feel like i cant stand to be around them for instance Kara Jones (who i feel is one of my very most best friends ive ever had in my intire life and i love her for that) but i cant seem to bring myself to cope with that shes changed and that she is so different. Half of me thinks that true but the other half of me thinks its my unhappiness coming through and i cant cope with the fact that shes happy and im not (and i know im a dick for saying that and that Kara Jones doesnt deserve to have such a selfish shitty friend like me) and im sorry that i ever thought that and its ok if you never talk to me again i deserve it. Like i said Kara i love you; your the reason ive ive kept my sanity for this long. Now Terry i deeply feel that im starting to hate you and your egotistic attitude toward everything. It driving me fucking insane and i cant say that i wouldnt talk to you even if i had the chance because i also love him (no homo) hes a good friend just a pompus one. Alex and Cody i love you too and we dont hang out enough we need to fix that.

I LOVE ALL OF YOU and like i said this isnt a "hate blog" its just a rank about my shitty life at the moment. And mom if you do keep up with my blogs its not because of you; you are the reason ive kept my sanity this long (you may piss me off from time to time) but i love you and theres nothing in this world that can stop that.

This horrible mood im in has been brewing inside me for monthes and its finally surfaced on this shitty ass Monday. I cant write a good/happy blog or pick up my bass for the sake of playing it anymore im dying on the inside and i dont know why.

....

ive come to hate myself

I NEED A CHANGE OF COURSE!

you got the weed, i got the pipe.

so ive been thinking a lot lately and im thinking that ima go back to something i didnt really want to go back too and if your important you should know what im talking about. but idk if its really what i want and like half of me wants it back (the feeling) and i mean a little of the person. but the other half of me kinda doesnt wanna go back to that because i know it'll end the same. IDK

its killing me. and i really dont think id do that to that curtain person.

on a lighter note
i think im failing school and i dont know how other than the fact that i dont do my homework...
yeah i think thats it


i dont know this is a horrible blog but i needed to get it out there

its driving me INSANE!!!

It rubs the lotion on the skin or else it gets the hose again!

so its been a while, i think the last i was on here Hurricane/Tropical Storm Hanna was like 100 miles off of the east coast. Well it ended up hitting OBX and not Savannah like planned but i went to my Grandmothers anyway, with my brother (he evacuated from NOLA because of Hurricane/Tropical Storm Gustav) but anyway we went there and i ended up have a sickness thats been going around for the past few weeks and i ended up staying there for a whole week which was nice lol.

Straight Edge-ism is actually nice its REFRESHING lol it needed to be said.

well i think im done for now i might add on to that but nothing really interesting has happened since then


PEACE!!

2 down; 178 to go

So, today was the first B-day and i have to say i didnt enjoy it as much as my A-days like i get to see a lot more people on A-days that i like you know like Kara Jones and Catie with a C. I mean i like my teachers and who are in my classes on B-days but today wasnt as fun as yesterday, i guess that also had to do with my mood about this whole thing like yesterday i woke up, and actually felt awake and today i had to force myself out of bed AHHHH! idk id rather have normal semesters again to be completely honest with you like just all this thought that has to go into what teacher i go to next is fucking dumb. but its not like we can change it now i guess.


yeah i think im done ranting about today.


PEACE!

1 day down; 179 to go.

Ok so today was the first days of school meaning its back to a Blog every now and then. WOOOWHOOO! so for starters i woke up at like 6:43 and i hopped in the shower and did my normal thing. I left my house at about 6:50 and i was off to pick up Kara Jones. After i swung by her house we stopped by the pantry and got an energy drink and headed out to school morning traffic. Now my parking spot is like WAY in the back next to the football field and so when we got there we got to walk to the back door of the school. When we get in the cafeteria we see about a thousand GOTHTARD 8TH GRADERS!(who in fact are all DISGUSTING) and i think I'm gonna just put that on the table.
But all in all it wasn't a bad day today i first got to Spanish 1 with Pritchard(i know; fun right. NOT) shes suck a bitch. then i got to go to English 2 with Dr. Read and shes not that bad, I've heard shes like one of the coolest teachers Ill have this year. Then i got to go see my FAVORITE teacher Mrs. Clayballs shes my Design and Sculpture 2 teacher and she acts like she hates me but i know deep deep down inside that old hag attitude she loves me lol. And last but not least i have Updike for Gov./Econ. And hes not bad but the was he talks is going to drive me insane.
So yeah that's A-day for you, hopefully B-day will be a little better.

Ima hit you from the back; and make you HOLLER TILL YOU PASS OUT!

OK, so its been a LONG while since I've done this. I've decided that I'd blog about my shitty life and how i don't think i can change it. First off, i come to decide that i will be alone through out ALL HIGH SCHOOL which could be the lamest thing I've ever said. but seeing as how i haven't dated anyone since Courtney Blankenship i don't think any thing will happen, and that also could be my negative attitude toward this whole ordeal.

On lighter terms schools starting back up and I'm kind of excited for that one. to be honest I'm just excited that i go back to working only weekends at the Holiday Inn. i really hope BN doesn't fall though id much rather working there 5 days a week other than the shitty Ohio infested hotel i work at now... lol

Over the summer its seemed, at least to me; that i have only 4 good friends, who consist of Terry Hart, Kara Jones, Catie with a C, and, i hate to say it; Haley Powell. which is actually not really a surprise to many people.

Since i last blogged a lot of shit has happen i got my driver's licence, I've gotten a car, i owe 200 hundred dollars to my grandmother, i went to Warped tour, I'm going to New Orleans in October, I've started a band, I've realize the band i started was a complete joke and ended it, and I'm on the rise of trying to start a band with actual musicians.

So for starters Warped tour, first off we got up at like 5 and started to get ready and we all meet at Kara's house at like 6 and got on the road, we got to Charlotte and met up with Kara's cousin and she took us to Warped. when we first walked in we when to the Hurley stage and saw May Day Parade and THEY ROCKED lol, after that we bolted over to see 3oh!3 but the floor was PACKED and so we stood in the bleachers and watched them and to be perfectly honest they are my all time favorite band after that experience then we went to the board to see who else was playing and we caught half of Gym Class Heroes, who was also pretty amazing, then we met up with Kara's cousins friends and saw Reel Big Fish who i think had the best performance of the the entire day. but the time between that and The Academy Is... is kind of a blur for some odd reason lol but the day went on and we ended up going back the the Hurley tent to see Family Force 5 and ended up sitting through the Pink Spiders and then leaving because we were all so exhausted all in all it was one of the highlights of my summer.

I finally have my drivers licence WOOOO WHOOOO! lol and now I'm the proud owner of a 2000 Chevy Metro, lol it looks like a grain of rice with wheels lol it AWESOME! but the band part is that i had to borrow 800 dollars from my grandmother the pay it off and I'm in the hole with her about 200 dollars at the moment but if i save up a weeks tips i can pay that off to her; no sweat.

and i think that's all for me today and I'll hopefully be on soon


PEACE!

Im not scared of dying, pieces of me die all the time.

So i blogged on Sunday morning which isn't my normal deal but since i rambled on about how i hated my job the previous night i thought that i should blog about my day on the 31st of may. WOW! that rhymed and i didn't notice till just now lol. So yeah today was an overall good day for Blake, I slept in and rode my bike to school(which is quite refreshing if i do say so myself) and i went through my normal day, which Chrome Dome first block, The Breaded Lady for second, Mrs. Chetta for third and last but not least Mrs. Will.I.Ams for Forth and all in all i like all of my teachers.

So after school i did the normal act of waiting outside of the school doors till Catie w/ a C's mom picked her, but today there was a yearbook meeting that my good friend Terry(who is mentioned in other blogs) had to attend, he had asked Kara and I to stay with Haley(another good friend of mind and Terry's women) until Terry got out of the meeting. Which having a boring conversation with Haley we go and get a refreshment and get back to our usual spot of boring conversation which randomly i look over to see the GREATEST HIPPIE IN THE WORLD, Karen(who's parents sent her to VERMONT, to attend a BOARDING SCHOOL, because her parents didn't agree with the road she was talking(figuratively speaking), shes back and not going back to boarding school but shes got to a private school on the island call Heritage.

After Terry got out of his meeting, and Haley and him left my and Kara headed off the drop her book bag off and go to Club BN(aka Barnes & Noble) for coffee and a book. On our way there my bike started to make a strange clicky noise and the pedal deicides the POP OFF and be all funny, well finally getting my bike pedal off and reattached i go to get on my bike and ride off i notice that my BLONDE ASS put the petal on the wrong way and so i have to chain my bike to the street sign and continue walking to Club BN. We get there and Kara gets this vegan soy chai tea thingy and i get a mocha mint frappicino and a brocolli and cheese scone and we relax cool off and brain storm about how i was going to get home. Well i ended up buying the "Kurt Cobain Journals" and get home with the help of Kara's Madre. So, all in all this has been an OK day now that i look back over it, my bikes in my garage fixed and I'm home safe and thats really all that matters for the time being.

Peace for now

Orange Peels, French Toast.

ok so its come to my attention that my good friend Terry isn't leaving his house because he made reference the the "N" word and i just want all of anyone to know that i got his back on this one because he didn't use it like "Oh you stupid "N" word" he used it to reference something like for example "Oh my god he just said "N" word" so its not like he was being racist, it was that he was just repeating something that someone said in shock.

Second off i think i should mention that i didn't stubble upon this just by myself, my good friend Kara Jones got me into this good mess, and I'm thankful she did. Speaking of Kara Jones, yesterday was really fun other than the nine hours i was at the fucking hell i call work. So yeah i got home around seven-ish, right when i walk in my mom and step dad/boss were eating dinner and i got yelled at for trying to tell him how to do his job even though i was about the hours i stayed open. But seeing as how hes my step dad and that he tells me one thing at home and a completely different thing at work pisses me off to a "T". Anyway to i run up stairs and take a quit shower and bolt to Kara's house. We sit there and i watch her play The Suffering for a good ten minutes and we left to go chill in the Allenhood, but with Cody going to B-town and Terry (who was talked about before) trying to finish a paper for English (which i should be doing right now) we had nothing to do so we steel a broken crackheads bike from the side of someones house and we end up in Applebees ... lol i know right.

So after being seated in our friend Brandon's section we order food which was pointless cause we weren't really that hungry but i ate mine and kara left a note in her's. We left in a rush to get back to Allenhood so her mom didn't know she was out at dark. We made it there with more than enough time to chill lol. So yeah when she got picked up i got on my bike and went home. And right went i walk in the door Mark is right there drunk out of his mind and start to tell me never to try to tell him how to do his job again with this attitude like he was beating himself up about it, AHHHHHHH i hate this job i truely do.

"Fuck you guys, I'm going across the street"

I woke up this morning with the grime thought in my mind that I had to go to "The Hell Hole" aka work, and it wasn't as bad as i thought it was gonna be but i still dread it. So as you all should know i work with/for my step father and even the littlest thing i say at work pisses him off at home, like i do it on purpose to like make him feel like he's not doing him job right, like for example when i was sitting on the couch last Friday afternoon and i say "hey man. can you do me a favor tomorrow and make sure Matt and the new guy (who doesn't know how to prep for our days) prep enough" and he went off telling me that i shouldn't tell him how to do his job, and he threatened to fire me (like he always does when he's mad at me at home) so i told him fuck you i quit and the only reason i said it is that when we run out of food I'm either the runner (the person who goes and gets the food) or i have to call the kitchen and get told that it will be a minute and they never show up and i get yelled at by customers telling me that its a fast food place and that we should have everything on the menu. But instead of fucking telling the dumb ass ppl (from Ohio) that its a Holiday Inn aka a full service HOTEL not a fast food joint i have to say "im sorry mam/sir that we can't accomidate your wants may i get you something else. PFST... thats bull shit. But i was forced to go back to work the next day anyways cause my mom agrees with way Mark got mad just not how he handled it lol i need a new job.

im going to sleep.

"I Can Ride My Bike With No Handle Bars; No Handle Bars"

So, all in all this is my first blog post now this new blog site that i have came across. And it seems to be more organized than myspace and i like so this is the new spot for me ... lol. So my title is "the semi-daily life of Blake" so I'll start this Blog off with a summary of my days of work, school(which is almost fucking over... HELL YEAH), and enteractment with friends lol. So yeah, I've been thinking about going sXe but its gotten to the point of the Nicotine, and i think thats my only draw back next to caffeine but once i get over this three day hump and i get ride of the gallon of caffeinated Arizona Green Tea i have I'm going to go completely sXe ... :)

Today was a beast, beast day; So school was normal boring as hell going to four classes and mostly sleep through all of everything except 4th block and lunch. But after was the fun part, let me give you the whole story. So a group of students a.k.a. a lot of my friends thought it would be a good idea to have a cook-out in the school parking lot, but got rudely interrupted by Mr. Colleyr. He quickly told the kids that there was a law against open flames in a schools parking lot and they'd have the move the festivities somewheres else. So they moved it to a nearby social spot called Jarvis Creek Park where they continued to festivities with Mr. Colleyr lol hints the name Colleyr Cook-Out.

So, today was the 2nd Colleyr Cook-Out and this time it was a little different first off i was there lol and second and most important COLLEYR DIDN'T SHOW UP!!!!! so in all of the pictures we took someones gonna crop Mr. Colleyr in there. After more food than anyone needed and a few games of Frisbee and football we cleaned up our HUGE mess, played with fire and went home.

And now, I'm done with today's entry and I'm sure I'll blog again either tomorrow or the next day.