... im lame

so ive come to the conclusion that i rushed into something that i shouldnt have and now i know that it was basically me being retarded like idk she interested in someone else which isnt a really big shocker you know. i feel im getting back to that numb state where nothing bothers me like im an emotionless person i dont like it. it causes me to be a huge dick to the people i love. i just dont think i can stop that feeling for a while so if i do end up pissing/offending you im sorry ahead of time i just dont think im going to care enough when it happens that ill feel the need to say im sorry so yeah there it is....

wow that was a dick paragraph idk like it'll be a year January 18 since ive had a "real" g/f wow thats lame ...


im out people are over for diner